[AU] 8x07 Aftermath 'CAUSE WE CAN!!!

[jerkchester]

[ it's night and Dean is coping ]

[ with alcohol ]

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[jerkchester]

Was it?

[freewill]

I don't know. I was pulled back here.

[jerkchester]

Tragic.

[freewill]

I choose death, and I'm brought back as punishment, again and again. I choose to stay there, and I'm dragged out by force. It's as if the world wants me to know that free will doesn't exist after all.

[jerkchester]

You're basing free will on whether you can off yourself?

[freewill]

It seems like when I exert it any other way, it only leads to disaster.

[jerkchester]

Maybe you're just not done.

[freewill]

What do you mean?

[jerkchester]

Maybe you just know ... you're not done. You want it to be done, you want it to be over ... but sometimes it just isn't.

[breathes in, shaking] Maybe that's why I'm here, listening. Because I'm just. I'm not done.

[freewill]

... [takes a moment to think it over]

I wonder if there's even such a thing as done, for an angel.

[jerkchester]

I'm sure there is. For all of us.

[freewill]

You are I are just... very bad at dying.

[jerkchester]

That works.

[freewill]

[shifts awkwardly and backs away from Dean]

[jerkchester]

What?

[freewill]

Nothing. I'm not sure what to say now.

[jerkchester]

Fair enough.

[freewill]

Maybe I didn't plan to come back here, but now that I am back, I plan to stay with you.

[jerkchester]

Sorry. But I said I wasn't buying.

[freewill]

That's fine.

[jerkchester]

[what]

[freewill]

I don't need you believe it in order to hold to it.

[jerkchester]

You serious?

[freewill]

[nods] Unless you force me away.

[jerkchester]

I won't.