[AU] 8x07 Aftermath 'CAUSE WE CAN!!!

[jerkchester]

[ it's night and Dean is coping ]

[ with alcohol ]

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[jerkchester]

Looks like we both struck out.

[freewill]

[oh no, heart breaking]

...

[jerkchester]

[leaning against the wall]

I wish I didn't. God, I wish I didn't need anything anymore. I'm already empty. So why the hell does it still hurt? Hell, it's not even news at this point, it's reruns.

[freewill]

[steps toward Dean and places a hand on his shoulder, tentatively]

... I'm sorry. I'm always getting it wrong.

[jerkchester]

Don't touch me.

[freewill]

[pulls back]

[jerkchester]

I'm done, Cas.

[freewill]

I'm not leaving.

[jerkchester]

And I don't believe you.

[freewill]

You don't have to.

[jerkchester]

What the hell do you want, Cas?

[freewill]

Why do you think I'm asking for something?

[jerkchester]

I'm not falling for that bullshit anymore.

[freewill]

[sighs and turns half away]

I want to help you on your hunts. I want to help you stop Crowley. I want to help you keep the prophet safe.

[jerkchester]

["help you"]

Fine. Do whatever the hell you like.

[freewill]

I'm sorry that I hurt you. I'm not very good at being family.

[jerkchester]

...

[freewill]

I wasn't making a choice between you or Purgatory. I was charting out my own fate.

[jerkchester]

Was it worth it?

[freewill]

...

[jerkchester]

Was it?

[freewill]

I don't know. I was pulled back here.

[jerkchester]

Tragic.

[freewill]

I choose death, and I'm brought back as punishment, again and again. I choose to stay there, and I'm dragged out by force. It's as if the world wants me to know that free will doesn't exist after all.

[jerkchester]

You're basing free will on whether you can off yourself?